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The Simple Things

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I love how you feel when your next to me. &n… Read more

OMG!!! HEAVEN

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FORGIVE ME?

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	Mark as Spam suzyb2good : 03/20/2007 2:32 PM Haven't spoken to you in a while in the cbox, been busy which I'm sure you have been too. Hope all is well and that you're having a good day!
	Mark as Spam I Am Raya : 03/14/2007 10:00 AM i miss you. :) its hard for me to find a place where i can be ok with myself. not sure it can ever happen. i can try, but i'm just waiting for things to iron out. funny how i can be so ready to love somone else in all their flaws but cant even except my own. im a peice of work, right? im glad to hear from you, probably the highlight of my day. but, what drives me crazy is why my happiness (or lack thereof) would bother you. you have your own life. you have yourself (&& friends, i KNOW you have friends). im not much of an attribute to you or your life. or anyone's for that matter. i feel like i only mean alot because im on the end of a line. the internet. gah, society really pisses me off. in some ways, others not. it's like, perfection is not a big deal for me, im okay with being me, and other people being themselfs, its that, society makes it a big deal for me. then again, people like you remind that there is good in the world. and keep me going. (even when it seems hopeless) as for my future. its a blur. i know what i want. and who i want to be. the rest is luck, i guess. i can never seem to make things happen, life controls me, unfortunately, not the other way around. why you are so sure good things will come for me is beyond my grasp, cause i dont think i was ment for anything more than what i have now. even though my mood fluctuates on that matter i still have that feeling i can't be anything more, or rather, society wont let me. but i have plans to change that. to change the way they think. its a big asperation but it will only stay just that if i allow it. thank you for talking to me, believe it or not, you are probably one of my best friends. and you dont have to do much to make things better, a few words takes the pain away. I love you, Raya
	Mark as Spam I Am Raya : 03/12/2007 10:07 AM Hey dussey. School district got common sense and gave me buzznet back. Havent seen you over the weekend (STILL grounded) so im hoping you're okay, guessing you're busy. sigh feeeling like you dont beling in your own skin is devistating. && i cant imagine i will ever be happy, seems like a distant fate im not bound for. i feel like im a titanic, headed right for the ice berg, only i can see it miles and miles ahead, but have no dictation over my ships course, im headed for a crash ending but cant stop it. i have 3 choices, abandon ship and end it early, stick with it and watch myself drown, or hope something great happens to me, hope god intends to make up for all the shit he put me through. at this point, though it is hard, i intend to keep alive, and afloat, untill i go down. i have no idea why i just spilled myself all over you, but, i did.
	Mark as Spam suzyb2good : 03/05/2007 5:49 PM Hey Bedussey, haven't seen you in the cbox so I wanted to drop you a hello. Hello! :D
	Mark as Spam fobio : 03/02/2007 6:38 PM i love you bedussey!!!!!!
	Mark as Spam crazyscorpio11 : 02/13/2007 11:26 PM its oky,i like random ppl bugging me!hahaha..j/k,ur x bugging me.drop me anote anytime.yeah i get wat u mean,boredom is a plague!im irah btw,u?hows life other than being bored?
	Mark as Spam geemesexybeast : 02/11/2007 6:39 PM Mhm ^ ^. acually. its blue. but it rinses out
	Mark as Spam crazyscorpio11 : 02/11/2007 9:24 AM weeell...okiiee,that was random,but its kool..v original,thanks!so im adding u,add me back and drop a note:D
	Mark as Spam fobio : 02/10/2007 9:06 AM WOOTY the CD is awesome ppl! haha
	Mark as Spam fobio : 02/04/2007 4:36 PM hey!!!